I am Foxy use to be a human named Ashley, but now a true fox i believe in my heart i am a fox! how did this girl named Ashley become foxy? how did she become a furry?
When i was 6 years old, i was just another 6 year old child normal and human..Until one day everything changed! early one weekend mornning i woke up around 5am to watch some cartoons, rubbing my eyes i walked into my living room and took a peek outside to see something that would forever, change my life, and change Ashley into Foxy, change a normal human into a fox..rubbing my eyes again, looking outside i saw a family, a family like any other, but this family, was a family of red foxes..Just passing through my backyard without a care in the world, mother father and 4 kits, i felt inside my body something was changing i couldn't stop looking at them, thinking to myself i wonder where they live? do they have names? all the things a 6 year old would think of..for the rest of that day i couldn't stop thinking about the foxes, i told everyone! for the next few days i begged my parnets to buy me a fox! they never did thinking this dream of foxes would pass over time, but as days weeks and years went by my love for foxes just kept growing!!
by the time i reached grade 3 my life would change once again but for the worse..one day in school we were doing show and tell..i was ready to tell everyone how i went to the zoo and saw well foxes!! lol. once i did a class mate spoke up and said "my dad hunts foxes and thinks there pest! " i said "there not there so cute and they mean everything to me! " he said back " i hunt them with my dad and he lets me shoot them.. now being 8 years old i didn't know any better, so i ran over to that boy and punched him and yelled out NEVER TOUCH A FOX AGAIN STOP HURTING THEM!! after that his family and all his friends would go on to bully me, even to this day they do..from there on out every day in school his friends and him would pick on me and make fox jokes at me.. i never cared bully me just don't touch a fox thats what i believed.
When i reached highschool i was so obsessed with foxes, they came my life!! one day i was home alone and had a par of fox ears and tail (not real ones ) i put them on and started to walk around on all 4s and yap yap like a fox, and turned my bed into a fox den..i knew i had to find a fox suit some how? by the time i found one in a Halloween store, i was wearing it all the time! at the time i never knew what furries were? i did feel alone at the time, as most of my old friends stopped talking to me thinking i was weird..i never knew if only i had looked on the internet i'd find a friends and a family called furries..the more alone i felt, the more i got into being around foxes and acting like one, feeling that foxes were the only ones who i felt like myself around..still dying for a pet fox so badly!! because i still had never had a chance to touch and feel a real fox..some days behind my house in the woods i'd make fox dens and at night i'd sleep inside them (in the summer time) i then started to eat out of a dog bowl on the floor at first my family found it werid but came to understand my love for foxes, had taken over my body lol
2012 was what i thought was the peek of being picked on the boys from grade 3 now growing up like me, were still always taken shots at me "oh there's Ashley the werid fox girl" and walking passed me saying "yup just killed another fox today" just to borther me..few days after Thanksgiving, i was getting ready to leave for school, when i opened up the door and looked down, i never hurt so deeply inside before up until that point. i fell to the ground and started to cry..on my door step was a dead red fox..throwin there by the same guys who picked on me for all those years, (i could never prove it was them but i know it was them) my mom came to the door and grabbed me got me away from the dead fox,i didn't leave my room for days..the thought of this little fox life being over, i blamed myself for my love of foxes..
going on the internet didn't help much as they would send me messages on facebook of videos of foxes being shoot or trapped from youtube..feeling so broken inside, i started to feel maybe i am werid? so i looked up what am i?? and i heard about furry..thinking to myself whats a furry? i looked that up next.. and once i did, i felt such a joy in my heart i wasn't alone!! theres people just like me!! friends some i've even come to call family now, after years of talking! many of them telling me Foxy it's ok to be "you" ones who make fun of you, just don't understand us.. I am so thankful for my furry family now, who've got me through so many hard times in life, and to hear others who share the same story as me, being in school as a furry.
im so thankful for all the furries that were there for me, on what at that time was the worst day of my life, late Dec of 2013.. i was going to my locker and once i opened it, it hit me all over again, just like the dead fox on my door step, there was a dead fox hanging in my locker..somehow they got into my locker and hung a fox, to this day i dunno how they did that..i couldn't hold back my tears as they laughed at me, i ran away to the bathroom..again my furries online helped me though it all..
i did wonder why many times, why me? why do they pick on me?
Christmas day 2013..i woke up and had an awesome Christmas with my mom and dad..just then i saw a truck pull up into our driveway, first thought was now what? what else can they do to me? when my dad went outside the man got out of the truck i didn't know him? i thought it was werid? when my dad came back inside he had this big box with a bow on it, for me! he said go on Foxy open it..i thought a new tv? lol... when i opened the box my heart skipped a beat, i saw this little face looking back at me, it was a face of a little red fox!!! no more than 6 months old!!i put my hands over my mouth and was jumping up and down like a kid lol..i couldn't wait to touch her! when i picked her up, she looked at me and nuzzled my chin and licked my face..here i was holding my dream touching a real fox!! as tears came down my face.. i said soft i....i...i...i love you RedTail..my parnets said what? i looked up at them with tears in my eyes and said,her name...her name is RedTail...that night RedTail slept in my bed with me,next to me..i kissed her ear and said sofly i love you RedTail you have no idea how lucky you are to be born a fox! had i only knowing i'd only have RedTail for only 3 months..because of the same guys who became hunters..a story for another time, if i can bring myself to doing it..
it's werid to think what a ride my life has been so far! just this little moment of seeing a familt of foxes when i was 6 years old, would change my life the way it has..i sometimes wonder how did i become this way? but then i see a fox and tell myself this is why i am foxy now! never knowing what a furry was? to becoming 100% furry and it being who i am all the time now! through all the good and bad in my life so far..i wouldn't change a thing! why you ask? because im Foxy and proud to be a furry!! YAP YAP